If you choose to pay careful attention to your intuition, your inner knowing or guidance, you can access much information and knowledge that is pertinent to your forthcoming awakening. The illusion distracts you from your homeward path by bringing your attention and focus back to your physical bodies again and again – hunger, tiredness, thirst, anxiety, fear, pain – in an endless succession of issues that it seems you need to deal with immediately.
Meditation is a way to overcome these distractions, but initially it seems impossible to quiet your mind and body, and one or other of them will divert your attention from your meditative practice. When that happens you become irritated with yourselves and frequently judge yourselves quite harshly for what you see as a failed attempt to relax and go within. But as with any skill, regular practice is necessary for you to achieve results that you can assess as satisfactory, as a sign that you are making progress. But often you feel that your attempts are unproductive, a waste of your precious time, and so you terminate the practice to go and take care of “more important” things.
Try not to give in to these temptations, for that is what they are. It is just your egoic side looking for attention by seducing you with the ideas that you have these “more important” things that you need to deal with. By resisting these distractions and continuing your practice, you do achieve something – you overcome your ego!
However, by seeking spiritual progress, such as watching for a moment of enlightenment, a moment without thought, or any other spiritual expectation, you set yourselves up for failure. Your mind will nearly always wander as it is part of the human condition where every situation is subjected to almost constant scrutiny and judgment. And that is what you need to release. As long as you engage in judgment and critique, you are coming from ego and cutting yourselves off from your center, the divine flame that glows within each one of you.
Obviously your ego does have a very useful role while you reside in the illusion, embodied. Its task is to maintain the integrity and health of your bodies, but over the eons you have spent in the illusion you have given it more and more autonomy and have come to rely on it for guidance. However, in spiritual matters it is totally incompetent, although it tries to guide you in those matters as well.
By entering a meditative state you detach yourselves from it and from its advice and guidance which it desperately wants you to honor and respect, and that is why you find its distractions as you meditate so engaging and effective. Your ego does not want to be replaced by the loving, compassionate spiritual guidance that you can access when you succeed in quieting it, and it will constantly try to distract you so that it can continue to control you. When someone pushes your buttons and you explode, that is your ego controlling you. Often, afterwards, you may wonder what got into you, and regret your words or actions
Being aware of this is the only effective way to overcome it, and you then have to use your will very determinedly in order to relax into that deep meditative state where you can access your inner guidance, your intuition, the spiritual guides who are always with you and available to offer counsel and guidance when you ask them to help you. That guidance is the gentle suggestion that informs you of its presence by making you aware of the discomfort you feel when your ego is demanding that you attack, and yet something else seems to be advising you that to do so is inadvisable. And, as most of you have discovered from time to time, when you go with the ego’s shrill advice while feeling pressured or threatened you frequently regret it later.
Relax regularly into meditation, or into a quiet and peaceful state, such as enjoying gentle music, reading a channeled message of love and upliftment, relaxing in a natural setting with water flowing or with inspiring views, and allow yourselves the luxury of just being. When you do this your intuitive sense that all is divinely taken care of will bubble up into your conscious awareness, enabling you to reconfirm your faith, your inner knowing that you are to awaken into the glory of eternal joy.
With so very much love, Saul.