Saul Audio Blog for Friday September 18th
Hello, this is John with Saul’s message for Friday September 18th 2015. Today I am posting my whole conversation with him because I feel many of you may be experiencing doubts, just as I am, about humanity’s awakening.
Me: Good evening dear Saul. Thanks for your last message. If you wish to commune, I am here intending to be ready to receive. And, as you must be very aware, I have been avoiding channeling again of late. What’s going on? My mood swings, my skepticism, my judgments, my lack of interest in life. If I’m on my path, and there surely is nowhere else that I can be, should I not be happy in the knowing that I’m eternally One with God, with you, with Jesus, with all of creation? Is my ego just blocking my access to the spiritual realms with meaningless distractions? Anyhow, I shall try to relax into a receptive frame of mind and listen to your loving response which I believe is always available to me. And yet, I’m on edge fearful. This is stupid, insane – me in conflict with me. And yet I’ve read that many holy ones on Earth have experienced something similar, only probably far more intensely. So why should it be any different for me?
I got very upset this morning listening to Anita Moorjani being interviewed about her near death experience by Brian Rose (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oz4NUe_hv2M). It was as though I was suffering deeply at missing out on God’s Love and Acceptance, like I could remember a time when I had it, but could not remember it, just the intense pain or emptiness of not having it, but what “it” was I could not imagine at all. I guess I just felt utterly alone and abandoned, as she told her story of the infinite Love and Acceptance that she had experienced during her NDE, and of the fact that her knowing of it has remained with her. Yes, I “feel” my life is pointless here on Earth, but I “know” that it is not. So please Dear Saul uplift me with a loving hug and an inspiring message.
Saul: Yes John, I will. And of course you are on your path, precisely where you intend to be in this and every moment. Your feelings of aloneness and abandonment are being felt by many on Earth at this time. An enormous release of negativity, of anger, of bitterness, of resentment, of fear in all its forms is in progress and is visible in all the conflicts, wars, and human suffering across so many parts of the world. This is a prelude to humanity’s awakening. It is essential that humanity releases its vice-like hold on the illusion by releasing all that is maintaining that hold by being in contradiction and opposition to Love – anger, jealousy, bitterness, resentment, judgment, blame.
There is only Love, and you know that, but in your fear, caused by the illusory separated state into which you willingly entered, you feel an intense need to protect yourselves. You fully believe in your state of separation, and in that state it seems that there are enemies all around you, anyone who is not you! But there is only One! And all that anger, jealousy, bitterness, resentment, judgment, blame is truly self-directed, BUT it is far too painful for you to acknowledge let alone accept and so you project it out there, onto others, and those others are You!
You have rejected the Love that is offered to you in every moment because of an intense sense of unworthiness that your choice to separate yourself from God has encouraged and developed within you. The parable of “The Prodigal Son” from The New Testament is the best analogy to describe what you are undergoing.
And the prodigal son returned home, which is what you are doing. And the greeting and welcome that you will experience when you arrive is utterly beyond your comprehension at present as you continue to be buried in the illusory state that you seemingly built all those eons ago, but in truth it was only a moment ago because time is also illusory. You did a brilliant job in constructing the illusion which is why it seems so absolutely real to you, more real than Reality, which you doubt.
The “touchy feely” physical environment that is the illusion that you built is incredibly limiting, and that is why it is so difficult for you to conceive of Reality. The limitations are like a vast cloak or veil, a heavy and impenetrable fog which hides the Light from you, Light that is eternally present. Those who have near death experiences are effectively breaking through into the Light for a moment, and that experience can never be forgotten.
Many of them are realizing that one of their tasks is to share their experience to assist in the awakening process which they have realized is inevitable, and they are doing that. All their fears have been dissipated, permanently, by the experience of Love that their NDEs provided.
This does not mean that they never feel sad or suffer, because that is part of the illusion to which they have returned, but those feelings are a result of their intense compassion for all of humanity. They too want the awakening to happen so that all may return Home to Reality where the infinitely brilliant and undimmable Light of God’s Love embraces all in eternal ecstasy.
Each one of you, even though you have not had the joy of a personal NDE, is also assisting mightily in the awakening process. The many are opening to the realization of the infinite Oneness that is the divine Creation as a direct result of the ever increasing intensity of the Tsunami of Love enveloping Earth and all life upon it. It is an intensity that you are driving in your enthusiasm to awaken, and to bring all to awakening with you.
Humanity’s awakening is the only possible outcome because it is the divine Will, and all wills are in alignment with God’s, although within the illusion that appears to be but wishful thinking. Maintain that wish, maintain your will to awaken, and make it happen. That is why you are on Earth at this time.
With so very much love, Saul.
Thank you!!
Cherie
Recently I have been feeling like the Prodigal Son before his return. A couple weeks ago I was really feeling great about living the Course, forgiving, loving, withholding judgement, etc. For the past few days I have been sick of the world and impatient about leaving the illusion and never wanting to return. I feel better hearing that it is part of the process and it will pass. Thank you for the light of hope Saul and for including your candid feelings John!
Thank you so much dear John for sharing your feelings, The answer of Saul is exactly what I too needed to hear!
Love!
How would God feel while under the impression and belief He is but a human? Would He not subconsciously compare Himself as a human with Himself as God, the One He really is, and feel like a worm compared to His Divinity? Would He not cry out “My God, My God, why have you abandoned Me?” in desperation and miss being Himself, be it mostly unconsciously, and oftere feel evel less than human in the good sense, aware of His human faults, imperfections, and weaknesses? And would He as that human not be angry at Himself, and condemn Himself for all the things He morally dislikes about the human He seems to be? And being innocent as God, would He not long to be innocent as a human too, and see no other way to be that but by projecting the guilt He feels for seemingly not being Himself on someone or something outside of Himself as a human? Yet still feel miserable, bad, and stupid because Being infinitely great courageous intelligent pure altruistic Charity, He could never be happy or fully sattisfied with His human acts and appearence?
Would all this not be like a process of crucifixion? A process of being falsely accused of things He in reality never did, does, nor will do, as He is but dreaming He is the human He experiences being?
But would all this not be evidence that as God He was willing to experience this hell, in order to schare His perfecty happy making Self knowledge lovingly with others that Who their true Being is is indeed infinitely great pure altruistic Love?
Everything He dislikes about His human self is dislike -unlike- How He really is, and what He is really doing. What as a human He esteems as His highest moral Ideal is Who and How He really is. In that sense God could not but love Who and How He is in truth. But his merely human self He would never esteem as morally perfect.
“My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me, so far from my cries of anguish?
“But I am a worm and not a man, scorned by everyone, despised by the people.”
~Psalm 22:1, 6
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+22
It is indeed God reading this now as you, His human appearance. Accepting this Good News -Gospel- or rejecting it, it is still God Who makes that judgment as you.
Been feeling the same myself, unable to meditate, old memories coming to the surface.
Great message! I really appreciate your honesty!!!
John, thank you so much for your courage and your honesty, posting this message. Yes, I am also feeling all that you are describing, but sharing about our experiences, as you are doing, helps a lot. We are One even in this and I thank you for being here.
In Love Always
Thank you John for your honesty. Many of us have those same feelings. I love your messages from Saul and Jesus. They have been like wings of hope for me. Blessings!
Hi John,
I just wanted to say hello, and to thank you, and to mention that I’ve read many channeled messages over the years, but I have yet to resonate consistently with any one series of messages other than yours. Interestingly, I channel messages from spirit too, and I have found at different times that our messages mirror each other, which is something that gives me great comfort, including the unusual expression “tsunami of Love” which my guides used for the first time in a channeling I called “The Time Has Come” back in June of last year (before I then I saw it used in one of your channelings). Anyway, my gratefulness is not just for your channeling, but also for your willingness to reveal, on occasion, glimpses of your own life struggles as I too share many of those same struggles.
Much Love,
Mathew
Dear John
I share your feelings in your question to Saul. Although we accept the messages of the great changes happening to humanity at this eternal moment, I get that patience for us is a challenge. I like you have been listening of the foretold first contact for years listening to Salusa and than messages from Sheldon. We have been told many things that go by without confirmation and yet it is those very messages that give me hope that we will unite with our space families and ascended masters. At my core it feels right to believe it is truly happening. The optimist.
I just want to thank you for your honesty in the questions you ask Saul and sharing it with all of us.
With great appreciation,
Paul
Thank you John. Your honesty and the eloquence with which you have shared it is soothing water to my Soul. We are so blessed to receive guidance and encouragement from our elder Siblings and yet there are times when I just want to hear that another of my brothers or sisters on the Path is untying their knots as well. Of course, Saul knocked it out of the park as always. Many Blessings.
John, same here–feeling mostly “blah” with occasional bouts of anger, some disappointment and doubt about progressing towards anything resembling an awakening…Saul, thank you for your continued support and encouragement during this trying time when, yes indeed, it is even difficult to meditate and connect…
Matt Khan also is saying basicly the same thing … its the letting go of the old, releasing … the LOVE is in the ‘Silence/nothing/quiet’ interesting love it .. thanks for sharing the whole of it … think we all are on the proverbial “right” if there is such a thing .. path … its as its supposed to be … like it or not, doesn’t matter … its the way it is in this moment …the next will take care of itself … Love to you and your work .. keep it coming .. May you be Blessed …
Thank you brother Saul in this timely symbolism on the Prodigal Son…in many ways all the common good people and families of humanity are the prodigal sons and daughters of the one life of God, All-That-Is. Even the nations of the world.
We have wandered far from our true luminous original divine nature. We have spent thousands of years in wasteful expenditures and disqualified energy and human creation. If we are ready and we can come to our personal and collective senses we can inherit a new earth world from God of infinite possibilities and evolution.
Hi John, you’ve probably watched the following video that was posted yesterday on Golden age of Gaia by Steve Beckow. https://youtu.be/tV4iMNI0t3g
It really changed everything for me and I now feel in Love again.
Love to you and all
John, Love Saul’s message! It reminded me of when I was a guardian for Braco in Portland, Or., I’d carry a crystal so I could remain grounded and not hold onto any releasing energy from 400+ participants. It did help me, to remain grounded.
I too had an NDE in 1981, visited Nirvana within the radiant abundant love that fills one up with only supporting Love. Coming back to Earth, I did forget. My NDE was at the end of 4th quarter of chiropractic college returning to my career choice, which I thought it would be a fulfilling one.
Painful to return after such an experience because I did forget, got lost in separation after a full awakening to knowing only Love. However, the classes I attended in Nirvana slowly returned. What to do with this profound information I had, was overwhelming, and what could I do with the material? Local friends had negative responses and said they didn’t understand or they didn’t believe in what I said.
To fill up with the abundant love takes getting out of your mind, out of the questioning and only embrace your feeling nature. Similar to how you connect with Saul…you wait for contact. Feeling the frequency of Love is a nanosecond connection to filling up with Light.
Thinking has two aspects, one feeling the other an electrical synapse, or cognative focus. When we use the purest form from both aspects or natures of thought in our creating, our world will be fuller because we’re applying a refined density in our thought matrix. Creating Nirvana on Earth entails leaving any kind of thought associated with separation and merging our whole selves into an awareness of Light.
Meditating with crystals for grounding influence, repeat “I Am Light.” Feel only Light with the help of the crystal, influences a perspective knowing only Light.
Bonjour John.
À chaque fois que je vois un nouveau message de votre part, mon cœur se réjouit.
Ils sont tellement précieux et ils m’aident beaucoup. Vous amenez la Lumière authentique où parfois se trouvent des peurs et des doutes.
Merci pour tout votre travail et merci d’être là maintenant présent sur terre.
Avec mes meilleurs messages de Lumière.
Laurence
Merci, de tout coeur…